Virtually indistinguishable from magic

 That's a silly title isn't it. At some point I confused believing that ego is a negative trait with believing that I am not vulnerable to it. But now I look out for it and see it everywhere. I see my fearful responses to others, the constant threats I look out for, how competitiveness has crept in. How long have I been held back in relationships and learning because of this? What can I now accomplish if I allow these feelings to exist without reaction? Muslim means one who submits [to God, but also maybe more often in other arenas?]. I hope I never stop striving to better myself.

Multimedia is the description given to a product of sound, visuals still and animated, text and so on. Earler versions of software products leaned into being multimedia products as it was exciting to see how forms displayed by a computer monitor could appear more living to us. However, games were more primitive back in the day, and a lot of activity happened in the mind to fill the gaps left by low bitrate audio or abstract visuals. Some of that activity relied on confirmation bias. You are playing a game about submarines, so the form you see in front of you is a second world war era battleship. You were mentally primed to see that in the dynamic Rorschach test you're seeing on screen. One of the components of this paritcular form of multimedia or software product for me then was the priming material that helped the mind along in understanding the world is was being presented with. So how did we see the perfectly ordered, 3 or so frames of tiled sprites of SimCity 2000 as if it was...

I've reached a bit of clarity and peace and don't have anyone to talk to about it, and so I need to write it down. I've let the ego or fear that others have, And a negative perception of neutral information, And panic that happens in the gap between not understanding and the mind comprehending, Prevent me from enjoying my apportion of God's gift to us. It is a deep regret that I did not arrive at this earlier, But with some optimism that I can use the time I have left to a better job of it.

My hot takes reflecting the last decade of my life working in the games industry, my experiences in growing as an amateur musician, and my frustrations with governance now go here. I started writing here as a joint venture with my friend who I love Ali who blogged once about chilblains , once about dating (not dating), but I kind of possessed it since. I want to acknowledge that this happened if he ever reads this. I doubt he thinks about the bollox I have polluted this with since.

I find my creative push and pulls are difficult to process.  I am someone who is getting more comfortable with the idea that if I lack a certain skill, it is not proof of personal difficiency or moral failing, it is not a challenge that needs to be overcome and I can ask for help or choose to spend time acquiring that skill, or choose not to do that. I think that is an expression of confidence and something I am still working on.   A constant challenge though is pinning down what I want to do and why I want to do it, and then sticking with it. What is the point?  I have this questioning with music. I can put it to the back of my mind because I go out and jam with other people regularly, and there's enough there to keep me distracted from the question.  I have a strong and unfulfilled compulsion to also create interactive experiences. I find it harder to let my imagination pull me into virtual environments than when I was younger, though that does still work on ...

I don't need to make a UI for an experiment Maybe the effort is becoming too much because the expectation is  People will get excited about a little something though and recognise a good idea....... Maybe